January 12, 2025

This is gonna be a long post, but it is important for me to share as it was a huge “Ahh Ha” for me in my spiritual journey. I’m hopeful this will be helpful for you too.

First, let me explain how my week has been going. As I have mentioned in a previous post, work has been unusually frustrating and physically challenging. This week was my long week, five, ten hour days. Starting Wednesday, all the progress we made before our weekend was seemingly undone. Wednesday, I was working so hard that I hurt my back. All week long it was aching and hurting me, but I kept working and pushing myself. Yesterday, it was so bad, I had to take pain pills for it. I try really hard not to take pain pills unless I have to. I had two doses of them during work. It didn’t seem to help at all. I started to ease up on how much I was expending myself at work at the end of the day. Most of the work was done anyways so I didn’t let anyone down.

Also, I meal prepped a wonderfully delicious blackened chicken salad with one of my favorite dressings to eat for lunch all week. I used my new grill to cook the chicken and it was juicy and delicious. However, five days of the same meal got old quickly.  And I have been working so hard, it wasn’t enough calories or balance of nutrients. Later in the week, I added a package of ramen to my lunch which helped tremendously with curbing my starvation when I got home. However, salads were still just getting old and I was not excited about them anymore.

While I was at work Saturday, I had been listening to a podcast about finances called, Financial Feminist. I’ve followed Tori for years on Instagram and I love what she has done. But I hadn’t listened to her podcast. So, yesterday I selected a few to listen to and was happy to find that I already do most of what she suggests. One of the podcasts I listened to was about emotional spending.

I am aware that I do emotionally spend money, both on shopping and food. Usually, I shop when I’m happy and feeling rich and end up buying more than I even really wanted. Buying things just because it’s on sale or cute, not really because I’d been looking for these items. Food is usually more a negative emotion coping mechanism. When I’ve had a hard day or am super tired, I buy something yummy like a specialty coffee or something that sounds good to eat. While neither are inherently bad, I know that I do these things more than I would like to. I have been making more conscious efforts to be aware of spending and basically halting most if not all unnecessary spending. However, I need to find some kind of balance. Spending money brings me joy. So I need to continue to do so, I am just fine tuning what is important to me and how to best do this is a way that benefits me the most. And Saturday night was a great experiment on how I can honor myself and my money the best.

So, since this week has been so hard, I have been wanting to treat myself to some yummy food for dinner basically all week. Food I don’t have at home. Yes, I have food at home. Yes, I haven’t a goal to save money. Yes, I am trying to eat healthy and balanced foods. However, sometimes you just need to let yourself have it to cope with what’s going on.

So, I did. I bought our favorite pizza, from our favorite place. I surprised my mom with it when she got home. She was very grateful and had been having an equally difficult week. I only bought one pizza. I originally had two in my cart, but after looking at the price of $50, I thought that was ridiculous and expensive. Also, we don’t need two pizzas. One pizza would be an amazing treat, not break the bank, gone in one night and then we would be done and move on. Which is exactly what happened. We were sad there was not more, but also grateful because we would have just eaten it and made ourselves sick from being too full.

After eating, I spent a good amount of time stretching and deep breathing into my body and sore muscles. I found stretches that felt amazing. It didn’t relieve all my pain, but I knew that it was better than not doing anything at all. We watched our current favorite show, Monk. And finally we went to be early, 7pm.

This morning, I woke up with my kitties and puppy in bed with me all cozy and happy. I jumped out of bed and mindfully got ready as I didn’t have a lot of time to get to work, but I had just enough time to do all I wanted. I brushed my teeth, made more coffee, made a bagel, packed my lunch, put the dogs outside and was heading out the door.

While I waited for my coffee and bagel, I used my Toyota app to start my car remotely and get it warming up for me. I never do that but I love being so luxurious that I can. So, when I got in my car, my seat was warm, the car air was warm from the heater and I was just so giddy with excitement that I thought of doing that this morning.

On my way to work, I listened to an Abraham Hick YouTube video and settled even more into a higher vibration. I realized my back didn’t hurt at all this morning! I wasn’t sure if it was the stretching, the extra sleep or just being in a high vibration, but it didn’t matter and I was just grateful to be pain-free!

I was chipper and welcoming everyone at work with a happy good morning. Everything at work seems to be finally settling down and working its way out, so it was looking as if it would be a normal day at work. I was eager to extend help to my coworkers as I felt invigorated and excited for the day. However, no one seemed to need help, but they were glad of the offer.

While I was out grabbing samples, I felt a distinct urge to say “woo!” Immediately I felt shame about doing such an odd thing, but almost as fast as that thought came, I sent it away and just joyfully yelled, “Wooooo!” It was a great feeling. As I moved on to more samples, I noticed myself laughing about something working that gave me issues earlier in the week. No one had worked on it, no one else used it, I just simply had a better attitude and it worked seamlessly.

Today, as I reap the benefits of my decisions last night, I reflect back and wonder how easy it was to jump from such negative feelings to such cloud 9 feelings in a matter of a nights rest. All of this to say is it was easy, it was quick, this will be long lasting as long as I keep noticing the good. Most importantly, you can do this too. I didn’t do anything that you don’t have access to. You got this! I hope you have a high vibration day, week, month, year, and LIFE!